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Loneliness in my Heart, Misfortune on my Mind, Doubt in my Soul

Search For My Reflection Lingers On...

Name:
Edward
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Well, anyone can tell I'm a weirdo, hopeless romantic, or just plain loco. Aside that, I'm a 28 year old dude living in present day NYC. After living in Michigan for a year, I'm back to my hometown to finish up some work here that I felt still needed some doing and also be in the greatest city in times of need. I enjoy working with computers a lot and do so in my current job on Wall St, doing all the crazy stuff someone with my geeky skillz does. I'm a real sucker for full blown romance, even though I've gotten into trouble and even scarred in search of it. Still, I don't think the whole topic is hopeless and still believe it's out there. I'm pretty open-minded, and always welcome in hearing new ideas, suggestions for movies, basically almost anything. I find myself to be a pretty good listener, and also can hold up a conversation pretty well. I'm not your typical "guy", but I am not too good at promoting myself, but I'm a pretty good person to know...guess you can see for yourself if you wanna give it a shot. I enjoy the company of all my TRUE friends & loved ones. I can't stand it when people take friendship or anything strong as something easily thrown aside, or expendable...that's just seriously heartless and selfish for not caring about the feelings of others. I def don't tolerate liars or backstabbers...especially those with weak hearts.
Not much else to say...you can make your ideas from my intro as well as all my entries =P


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There are only four questions of value in life:
What is sacred?
Of what is the spirit made?
What is worth living for, and what is worth dying for?

The answer to each is the same:

Only LOVE



There are those that do not believe that a single soul born in heaven can split into twin spirits and shoot like falling stars to earth where over oceans and continents their magnetic forces will finally unite them back into one

Have you never met a woman who inspires you to love? Until your every sense is filled with her? You inhale her. You taste her. You see your unborn children in her eyes and know that your heart has at last found a home. Your life begins with her, and without her it must surely end...



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...I see in your eyes the same fear that would take the heart of me. A day may come when the courage of men fails, when we forsake our friends and break all bonds of fellowship, but it is not this day. An hour of *woes* and shattered shields, when the age of men comes crashing down, but it is not this day. This day we fight! By all that you hold dear on this good Earth, I bid you stand, Men of the West!



May the grace of the valor protect you...



It's like in the great stories. The ones that really mattered. Full of darkness and danger, they were. And sometimes you didn't want to know the end. Because how could the end be happy? How could the world go back to the way it was when so much bad had happened? But in the end, it's only a passing thing, this shadow. Even darkness must pass. A new day will come. And when the sun shines it will shine out the clearer. Those were the stories that stayed with you. That meant something, even if you were too small to understand why. But I think, I do understand. I know now. Folk in those stories had lots of chances of turning back, only they didn't. They kept going. Because they were holding on to something.

What are we holding on to?

That there's some good in this world...and it's worth fighting for!



Do you remember when we first met?

I thought I had wandered into a dream.
Long years have passed. You did not have the cares you carry now. Do you remember what I told you?
You said you'd bind yourself to me, forsaking the immortal life of your people.
And to that I hold. I would rather share one lifetime with you than face all the ages of this world alone...

...I choose a mortal life

You cannot give me this...
It is mine to give to whom I will. Like my heart.

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Summer romances begin for all kinds of reasons, but when all is said and done, they have one thing in common. They're shooting stars, a spectacular moment of light in the heavens, fleeting glimpse of eternity, and in a flash they're gone.

My Dearest Allie. I couldn't sleep last night because I know that it's over between us. I'm not bitter any more, because I know that what we had was real. And if in some distant place in the future we see each other in our new lives, I'll smile at you with joy and remember how we spent the summer beneath the trees, learning from each other and growing in love. The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds, and that's what you've given me. That's what I hope to give to you forever. I love you. I'll be seeing you...


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Let me help you...
Yes, you can help me...Forget you ever knew me, and never come back here again.



Strength and honor

What we do in life... echoes in eternity

Ancestors, I ask you for your guidance. Blessed mother, come to me with the Gods' desire for my future. Blessed father, watch over my wife and son with a ready sword. Whisper to them that I live only to hold them again, for all else is dust and air. Ancestors, I honor you and will try to live with the dignity that you have taught me


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States I have visited:

Visited States

Visited US States Map from TravelBlog




24
24
Let Me Know When You Start To Worry


Libra
Libra
Indecisive, Peace-loving and Prefers a Calm, Smooth Approach


Corazon Salvaje
CS




Corey Hart

...Cause no-one can take away your right
To fight and never surrender


Sunglasses At Night

I wear my sunglasses at night
So I can, So I can
Watch you weave then breathe your story lines
And I wear my sunglasses at night
So I can, So I can
Keep track of the visions in my eyes

While, she's deceiving me,
It cuts my security(has)
she got control of me
I turn to her and say

Don't switch the blade on the guy
in shades; oh no
Don't mess around with the guy in shades;
(oh no) (I can't believe it)
You got it made with the guy in shades;
oh no

I wear my sunglasses at night
So I can, So I can
Forget my name while you collect your claim
And I wear my sunglasses at night
So I can, So I can
See the light that's right before my eyes

While she's deceiving me,
she cuts my security( has)
She got control of me
I turn to her and say

Don't switch the blade on the guy in shades
(oh no)
Don't masquerade with the guy in shades
( oh no) (I can't believe it)
don't be afraid of the guy in shades
(oh No) (It can't escape you)
(cus) You got it made with the guy in shades
( oh no)

I said I wear my sunglasses at night
I wear my sunglasses at night
I wear my sunglasses at night

I say to ya now I wear my sunglasses at night
I wear my sunglasses at night
I wear my sunglasses at night

I cry to you now I wear my sunglasses at night
I wear my sunglasses at night



Bryan Adams
BA
Everything I Say Comes From One Place and One Place Only...Straight From The Heart

To really love a woman,
To understand her,
You've got to know her deep inside ...
Hear every thought,
See every dream,
And give her wings when she wants to fly.
Then when you find yourself lying helpless in her arms ...
You know you really love a woman

When you love a woman,
You tell her that she's really wanted.
When you love a woman,
You tell her that she's the one.
'Cause she needs somebody, to tell her that it's gonna last forever.
So tell me have you ever really ... really, really ever loved a woman?

To really love a woman,
Let her hold you,
Till you know how she needs to be touched.
You've got to breathe her, really taste her,
'Til you can feel her in your blood
when you can see your unborn children in her eyes ...
You know you really love a woman





Richard Marx
Rich
I've always had wings...but I wasn't ready to fly

Angelia

Memories of you and me
Tumble inside my head
The way that we used to be
Things that we said
No one has ever made me believe so strong
You left me to wonder
How did our love go wrong

Angelia
Where you running to now
Angelia
Got to make you turn around

I lie awake at night
Wait for the sun to shine
I still feel you next to me
Your lips on mine
Without a warning
You made our love a lie
You said you were sorry
But you never told me why

Angelia
Where you running to now
Angelia
Got to make you turn around

Maybe my love is in vain
Maybe you're the hurting kind
Can't take no more of this pain
I've got to get you off my mind

Tried to be what you wanted
I gave you all I had
You left me with nothin'
Nothin' but a photograph

Angelia
Where you running to now
Angelia
Got to make you turn around
Angelia
Where you running to now
Angelia
Got to make you turn around




E-Rotic
E-Rotic

Touch me
I wanna know if you know that I love you
I wanna feel that you're real to me
Touch me
I wanna know if you know that I need you
And you need me too
Ayaaa aya ayah!
Ayaaa aya ayah!

Baby,
Tonight the story of love's going on
And you will take part
There's a feeling inside
Keeps feeling me there's nothing wrong
Come close to my heart

I want you to touch me
I wanna know if you know that I love you
I wanna feel that you're real to me
Touch me
I wanna know if you know that I need you
Baby, I wonder if you need me too
I want you to touch me...
Hold me...



Whoa NELLY!
Sade

Powerless

Paint my face in your magazines
Make it look whiter than it seems
Paint me over with your dreams
Shove away my ethnicity
Burn every notion that I may have a flame inside to fight
And say just what is on my mind
Without offending your might

Cuz this life is too short to live it just for you
But when you feel so powerless what are you gonna do
So say what you want
Say what you want

I saw her face outside today
Weatherworn, looking all the rage
They took her passion and her gaze and made a poster
Now it?s moccasins we sport
We take the culture and contort
Perhaps only to distort what we are hiding

Cuz this life is too short to live it just for you
But when you feel so powerless what are you gonna do
But say what you want
Say what you want

Hey you, the one, the one outside, are you ever gonna get in,
get in
Hey you, the one that don?t fit in, how ya, how ya gonna get in

Hey you, the one outside, are you ever gonna get in with your
Broken teeth, broken jaw, broken mojo
Yeah, this life is too short to live it just for you
But when you feel so powerless, what are you gonna do

Cuz this life is too short to live it just for you
But when you feel so powerless, what are you gonna do
Cuz this life is too short to live it just for you
But when you feel so powerless, what are you gonna do
Say what you want, say what you want, say, say, say

Cuz this life is too short,
Just for you



Sweet Sade
Sade
...there must have been an angel by my side...you gave me the Kiss Of Life

Somebody Already Broke My Heart

You came along when I needed a savior
Someone to pull me through somehow
I've been torn apart so many times
I've been hurt so many times before
So I'm counting on you now

Somebody already broke my heart
Somebody already broke my heart

Here I am
So don't leave me stranded
On the end of a line
Hanging on the edge of a lie
I've been torn apart so many times
I've been hurt so many times before
So be careful and be kind

Somebody already broke my heart
If someone has to lose, I don't want to play
Somebody already broke my heart
No, no I can't go there again

You came along when I needed a savior
Someone to pull me through somehow
I've been torn apart so many times
I've been hurt so many times before
So I'm counting on you now

Somebody already broke my heart
If someone has to lose, I don't want to play
Somebody already broke my heart
No, no I can't go there again


The Pet Shop Boys
PSB
'Cause you're a New York City boy...where Seventh Avenue meets Broadway

Home

We all have a dream of a place we will love
The fire is burning and the radio's on
Somebody smiles and it means "I love you"
But sometimes we don't notice when the dream has come true

You've got a home here
Call it what you want
You've got a home here
to return to
when you can't
face the world
and you need some support
to succeed
You've got a home

We all make a mess of our lives from time to time
It's part of the process that you stumble as you climb
And if you ever feel the pain is far to big o' deal
I say with pride "I'll be on your side"

You've got a home here
Call it what you want
You've got a home here
You're gonna want it
when you can't
face the world
and you need
some support
to succeed
You've got a home
You've got a home



Stutterfly
Stutterfly
Nothing has changed...wounds just grow deeper...


I feel so numb
All I've become
Has Fall'n apart
Hole in my heart

Severed fragments of my being
Piece together, give life meaning
Fragile quilts of faded memories
Torn apart by lifes disease again

I will cry
All is a lie
That you must pray
Heal my heartache

Severed fragments of my being
Piece together, give life meaning
Fragile quilts of faded memories
Torn apart by lifes disease again




Wolfsheim
Wolfsheim

Blind

I think of you...like I often do
When I hear the rain...on my window pane
Gently tapping at the glass
Like your gently touching fingers
Just looking for the smile
I give to you

You can feel what no one feels
You can hear what no one hears
Just looking for the smile
I give to you

And your darkness speaks and has eyes to see...
You know me by my voice
But you know so much more then...
"Don't fight the walls...they're here for all!"
Was what you said to me...once
I looked into your eyes
And I knew you were right

You can feel what no one feels
You can hear what no one hears
Just looking for the smile
I give to you

And your darkness speaks and has eyes to see...
You know me by my voice
But you know so much more then...
You can feel what no one feels
You can hear what no one hears
Just looking for the smile
I give to you

And your darkness speaks and has eyes to see...
I know that you can win
This lifelong game we're in
"Hey! Darkness is a state of mind!
I can go where you would stumble!"
Was what you said to me
And I knew you were right

You can feel what no one feels
You can hear what no one hears
Just looking for the smile
I give to you


STING
Sting

Fields Of Gold

You'll remember me when the west wind moves
Upon the fields and valleys
You forget the sun in his jealous sky
As we walk in fields of gold

So she took her love
For to gaze awhile
Upon the fields and vallies
In his arms she fell as her hair came down
Among the fields of gold

Will you stay with me, will you be my love
Among the fields and vallies
You forget the sun in his jealous sky
As we lie in fields of gold

See the west wind move like a lover so
Upon the fields and vallies
Feel her body rise when you kiss her mouth
Among the fields of gold

I never made promises lightly
And there have been some that I've broken
But I swear in the days still left
We'll walk in fields of gold


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